75% rank

hello bloger. it's me again! well this time i'm really scared.. because 2 days later i'm gonna got my raport for 5th semester. why i'm scared? let me tell you about this, now i'm in 3rd grade of high school, and the raport of 5th semester is very important, because the point of us will be sent to jakarta and university that we choose, if I get the rank 75% in my class -__- since I'm in high school actually I never get out from rank 10 in my class, always..5,6,7,8.. but in the 3rd grade. my class mates are goin' crazy to get the high point! so on the periodic test one, I cant get the ank 10.. :( maybe I have no study hard like my friends.. i dont know what's wrong with me! why I'm like this, i dont know..

sometimes, I just silent.. but deep in my heat I'm so scared makes my parents sad. so what I have to do? mommy always ask me to study if I have time, but I always thought that I have no time! because I think I'm too busy with all this crazy school and crazy 'bimbel'! I have no time for sleep, I have no time to watch my favourite tv programs, and I have no time to go to somewhere with all my friends! if in LMFAO's song he said that, 'everyday I'm shuffle in' but in my song I sing 'everyday I'm studying!' oh God..

everyday i'm study, i'm reading, but I never get the perfect point on my test! 100! so I think, i cant get the snmptn undangan, T_T like just the way I am, I just silent, but deep in my heart.. I cry.. cry cry~

note: but I hope I cant get 75% rank in my class.. i'm still waiting, hope.. wish me luck for saturday! saturday, I'm comin'~